April 26, 2006

April 26 Update

Today was a little better than yesterday – although I have good moments and not so good ones.

There are times when I get so tired of being tired, I could scream – if I wasn’t so tired. I feel like Jesus from the Bible, right before his crucifixion where he says, “My Father, if it be possible, let this cup pass from me; nevertheless, not as I will, but as you will”

I feel envious of those that can run and jump like I used to at one time. But eventually my little pity party comes to an end and I move on. There are many people with problems larger than mine.

I gained to two Lbs from yesterday and will probably notch another gain tomorrow, as I’m feeling thirsty tonight. I’m drinking lots of seltzer, as it is one of my favorite drinks.

But I’m tired now, so I’m off to bed.

Posted by The Vorlon at April 26, 2006 9:06 PM
Comments

I so understand your feeling sad or even envious of those who can run and jump like you used to be able to do. I do too. And, I certainly understand your little pity party too. Fortunatly, those little parties don't last long, but I think it has to happen when so much loss has happened in our lives. I have Muscular Dystrophy and a severe Scoliosis, and for some reason, I still have trouble believing this has really happened to me.

However, we are both basically very strong people and we have our great love of God that keeps replenishing our souls and renewing our optimism.

May each day be a day of strength and renewal for you, You are in my prayers each day.

Posted by: Ruth Berlien at April 26, 2006 11:19 PM

Dear Ted

I am sorry you are feeling down and out. It does get to you when you are sick all the time. You can not afford to lose weight! Maybe you should not push so much when you are weak & tired.
Mike while on Chemo & Radiation lost 40 some pounds and had to wear suspenders to hold up his pants. He was so weak he did not want to get off the couch. His family doctor gave him some pills for a week and he started to feel better. He is now in remission as of last week. He started to put on weight and grew hair so he had to get a hair cut (Little thing make some people very happy!) They are going to take out the port as soon as he is strong enough to go through the surgery.
Ted keep you spirit up and take very good care of yourself. I am keeping you in my prayers and hope to see you soon!!!!!!!!

Posted by: Doris Bertolino at April 27, 2006 12:56 PM

Ruth,
Thank you for your always gracious comments. I guess we just have to buck each other up.

Doris,
Thank you.

Posted by: Ted at April 27, 2006 8:42 PM