October 2, 2008

Thursday, October 2, 2008

It’s 7:30 and I’m ready for bed. I started feeling awful and I took a Rolaid. I must have had indigestion from my dinner as I feel better now. The thought of getting my house ready to sell is overwhelming. I have no one to help me. I feel more lost and alone than I did last year. Maybe it’s a cycle one goes through. I miss Ted more than ever and I miss my parents. I have called other family members and it helps for a while.

I went to the Dentist today. They skipped the x-rays because I had a full face last time. The bill was still astronomical for check up and cleaning. I dropped my dental insurance. I only kept the medical. It still probably cost less than the premiums per year. I’ve been going to Dr. Dudley for 25 years. They all liked Ted. They are like family.

Maybe my sprained ankle has me down. My body is going through the healing process. I hope I feel better in the morning.

News from the Vorlon Wife.

Posted by tedkarol at October 2, 2008 7:36 PM

Sorry to hear that you are having a bad day.
Hopefully tomorrow will be better. Know how
much you miss Ted and we do also. However
saying that is not the same as living with
someone 24 hours a day and having someone to
cuddle up with at night. Know it must be devasting but you are strong and will get yourself through this.

Have faith in God. He will see you through

Love you, Mom & Dad

Posted by: Mom & Dad at October 2, 2008 10:49 PM

Dear Karol, Know that some days are going to be worse than others. Especially since you just came back from a fun family vacation full of people. It is very hard being alone and coming home to an empty house day after day. Ted's spirit is always with you. He would want you to be safe and move on with your life. Getting a house ready for sale in this market would be hard on anybody. It's harder on you because you are also bringing closure to your life with Ted by selling the house. I don't know if you feel you are giving Ted up all over again by wanting to move closer to family in Pennsylvania. If you need help call. Know you are not alone there are lots of people who love and care for you. Tomorrow will be a better day. Keep your chin up and keep moving forward one step at a time. Affectionately, Cheryl

Posted by: at October 2, 2008 11:41 PM

Karol - my thoughts are often with you. We need to get together for dinner again. You tell me about California, I'll tell you about Scotland!


Posted by: at October 3, 2008 8:05 AM